Well, while CS is my second love, I don't feel I'm settling for something of lesser value. After all, if I did become an herpetologist, I'd love my job likely- but finding one and keeping one would be much harder I'd assume. With CS, I'd love my job, and finding one and keeping it wouldn't be as hard. Plus I'd likely make much better pay. I'm not losing much. The key difference between my "first" and "second" love is the order in which I discovered my love for them.