You aren't.
Calculus is extremely boring.
AP Calculus isn't real calculus. It's "calculator calculus".
Yeah, I think there's a distinction to be made between the calculus geared toward engineers (AP calculus falls in this category) and calculus for people who aren't motivated by application. While I did like the introductory calculus courses, they didn't feel anything like the math classes I took afterward. I didn't think they were boring at all, but they definitely didn't feel as enriching as other classes I've taken.