4am. cant sleep. at 330am I started having bourbon so I can just pass out. I almost got to sleep about 230, but my dreams were immediately fucked as hell and woke me up. I guess cause girl is gone. Cant sleep without knowing she is ok? She went out with the girls (one of them leaves forever tomorrow, err, today). Got drunk and is staying at her friend's house. I text her at 3 telling her i hope she is ok...she responded at 330am.
jealous me...awesome. thats healthy as shit. but since everything has been going wrong all day, my mind immediately freaked.
I went to the bar last night and parked in a lot of apparently another business (that had a no parking sign a ways away from my truck that i didnt notice). ANYHOW, I got fucking towed. So today I woke up with a shitty hangover (from 9 beers, which is weird for me), had the girl argue with me last night because I kissed her at the bar (she doesnt want all her psych pplknowing, because they might tell ex fiancee because they are friends with him over her), and my coke from mcdonalds was a cherry coke (I guess that was the straw that broke the camels back, cuz I sorta freaked on that).
so $300 tow bill + argument + cherry coke + me wondering wtf she is doing tonight = me not sleeping. I started drinking bourbon at 330 (half hr ago). I can finally feel it. hopefully I catch a buzz and pass out.
OH! and there is the normal neighborhood domestic dispute going on.
