Finally stopped procrastinating and registered to take the 17-hour DMV sponsored Motorcycle Safety course in late April, so assuming all goes well I should have my class "M"-license early May
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I opted to take the most expensive course offering since I'm a complete motorcycle noob... this course option has two instructors that will teach a maximum of 6 students, giving each student more personalized and individual attention when practicing and developing driving technique. People have told me the basic rider course would suffice, but for me the smaller class size means less anxiety about being a noob and is worth the extra $60.
I've had multiple people tell me that driving a motorcycle in Maryland is like asking for death, but I don't really care about the higher risk of death... honestly, if I were to die tomorrow, while I may have regrets about having never loved and been loved, regret not having done this or that, etc., ultimately I think it would be an unfortunate but convenient relief to get out of the chore of life.
Not that I could ever deliberately bring myself to commit suicide, I rationalize that it would be rather silly to do so considering all the time, money, and effort my family and I have put into it already; it would void my life insurance policy anyways. But I think in a way I subconsciously welcome the thrill of possible death, as there's little to no excitement in my life currently, and the thrill of the ride may be just what I need to start thirsting for life again. Besides, I hear people have revelations and a whole new perspective on their lives after brushing up against death. Whether the consequences of getting my motorcycle license ends in death or not, I see it as a win-win situation.
Man, winter makes me damn emo. Fuck
SAD.