Damn it, I didnt do it like I was going to.
First interesting thing...when I went into her room there was some country song playing that was saying about "Why'd I let her lie to me" etc, I just broke down.
I asked her if she had ever done anything with any guy, she said no.
I asked her if she had done anything with Axel, she said no.
I asked her what happened 2-4 weeks ago after some Dominos party...she said nothing.
Not until I TOTALLY told her what I knew did she acknowledge it...lying to my face, great.
-I went there planning to break it off, but my head & heart don't work together I guess. In the end she came up with something saying we should take a "break" for the summer, in case she doesn't come back to school(she failed alot of classes this yr), "she doesnt want me to be sad".
-I know she's coming back, she just wants to be free from me, I just can't accept that when I'm talking with her...I can everywhere else though.
So she lied to me, was hypocritical, and technically cheated. (what she told Clarissa [friend I asked about this] was that she didnt remember anything up until he was going down on her & she sorta was like wtf)
We had a BBQ today @ a REAL friend's, Becca (sister of apartment owner) was about to go pick up Axel when Joel (apartment owner) was like, uhm that sounds like a bad idea.
Eventually Becca told Axel that everyone just found out about Axel, Jacque, & me and that he shouldn't come, he said ok.
Later he talked to Clarissa & asked her what was going on & if I knew what happened.
1 fucking God damned month, no apologies, no mention, STILL no apologies, nothing.
People are such ass holes, Axel & moreso Jacque (hard as that is to say).
Tomorrow, my goal is to call her & end it for sure & for good. I probably will want to find some a new class, I dont know that I could take doing band with both of them in it with out just breaking down & doing some serious damage. Cant go to band parties anymore, they're all @ Tony & Axels...maybe I'll hang with Tony (if he is cool, I dont know that he is)...this is all so fucked up
Even Clarissa said she was (& still sorta is) just in shock about this whole thing, Jacque being her best friend & all