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General Discussion / Brain tumor && depression/anxiety
« on: June 05, 2011, 03:24:36 pm »
I posted this on another board I frequent, but since some of you know me and have seen me go through some interesting stages, I feel I should also share this here...

I've always suffered from depression and anxiety, both severe and I could never figure out what was quite wrong... it's been years that I haven't been able to "find myself" and always felt out of place. Struggled in school, unhealthy relationships, drugs, criminal activities.. none of it felt like "me," but it all distracted me from my internal struggle. I've lifted on and off for years, never getting any significant results other then a good amount of weight loss. This brings me to December 2010, I had a routine surgery to fix a broken nose that I had neglected for a while.. during the pre-op blood testing I asked the doctor to check my testosterone levels, simply because I lift and was curious.

At first they refused, claiming the only reason someone at my age would care is because of steroid use.. eventually the doctor OK'ed it and they ran the test. My testosterone levels came back ridiculously low, in fact my doctor compared it to the levels he would see in a 70+yr old male. He sent me off to an endocrinologist, who claimed it didn't really make any sense and even from the very first appointment with him he said there may even possibly be a tumor causing this. I went through many blood tests, multiple MRIs, and a procedure to draw blood directly from the brain.

Six months later, and I have been diagnosed with Cushing's Disease caused by a tumor in the pituitary gland on my brain. On June 23rd I will be going in for brain surgery, endoscopic skull base pituitary surgery to be exact in the hopes that my surgeon can remove the entire tumor and cure the disease, and allow me to live a normal and successful life. I don't know if I'm writing this more to get my story out, or to advise everyone to always investigate a problem with your health if you truly feel there is one. It's not always just "be a man, get over it, disregard everything, acquire currency.." sometimes there is an actual cause for your thoughts and problems. After years of struggling with severe anxiety and depression, I've finally found the cause and am taking the steps to turn my life around. Don't lose hope misc, don't ever lose hope.

tl;dr I suggest you read it, but basically I struggled all my life, eventually discovered a brain tumor causing my problems, am getting brain surgery on June 23rd to remove the tumor and I have a positive outlook on the rest of my life. I've been through hell and back, and now it's all coming to an end because I took the choice to consult many different doctors and find out what was wrong with me.

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General Discussion / Re: Let's hear it!
« on: February 03, 2011, 08:47:58 pm »
Let's hear it! I'm still an emotional wreck when it comes to females.

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[x86] Announcements / Re: x86 officially disbanded
« on: July 26, 2010, 11:41:09 pm »
pfft

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General Discussion / Re: what's up, check out my music!
« on: June 05, 2010, 02:20:37 am »
Kudos for creating anything in the first place; always feels good. The music sounds rather lackluster. Nobody is going to enjoy these songs the way you do, so what they think is irrelevant until you hone your voice and songwriting abilities, if you intend to take it that far.

Since it seems as more of a hobby, just keep doing it for your personal creative experience.

rabbit: Yes, I never  claim to be anyhting but white. And I don't spit "niggah im from the hood blah blah blah" so honestly your comment sounds stupid.

crazed: ^^

trust: yeah, anytime

armin: like yeah I know you're very successful and I love your music but honestly bro, "never stopping" is kinda ehh but EVERYONE that's head "forever in time" think's its pretty fucking incredible. so idk bro. My lyrics are spot on, my voice is the only thing lacking.

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General Discussion / what's up, check out my music!
« on: June 04, 2010, 02:15:51 pm »
http://www.myspace.com/stevenhildenbrand

Let me know what you guys think.

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General Discussion / Re: MacBook 2.1 - Odd Problems
« on: December 12, 2009, 02:35:54 pm »
My memory arrived today, and all is well. Good looks on the suggestion, Camel! Plus, everywhere I had read states my MacBook will only show 3GB of ram because that is the most supported, howeverrr it shows all 4GB which is pretty awesome. So yeah, I'm pretty excited about it.

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General Discussion / Re: MacBook 2.1 - Odd Problems
« on: December 08, 2009, 06:16:59 pm »
I do get the grey screen of death. And, I do have problems with the ubuntu CD. It freezes up and doesn't let me install. Hmm, it probably is memory to be honest. And, I don't hear any noise from the harddrive so you know, maybe you guys are dead on with the memory. I'll order 4gb's of memory and try that out.

Edit: Ordered this memory a few minutes ago. I'm almost sure the laptop will only recongize 3.2GB of the memory but that doesn't really make much of a difference to me. Plus, I've always loved g.skill memory... and the 2GB is $50 after tax and doesn't have free shipping.

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General Discussion / Re: MacBook 2.1 - Odd Problems
« on: December 08, 2009, 10:39:00 am »
Been on for roughly ten minutes, fan's at 1800rpm and CPU's at 49 degrees.

And, it froze so I restarted it and the keyboard was all types of fucked up. Pressing different letter keys gave me numbers and symbols. Something is corrupt as fuck.

Also.. it cannot go to screensaver without freezing up and needing to be restarted. When I try to bring it back it'll go to a black screen then back to the screensaver. I can move the mouse cursor around and see it, but other then that nothing.

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General Discussion / Re: MacBook 2.1 - Odd Problems
« on: December 07, 2009, 05:30:31 pm »
Mac OS X 10.4.11 - I don't have any disks or anything, it was given to me as a broken laptop. I don't want to spend the money because I want to figure out the problem first. I can't reproduce an exact situation in which it freezes. It's random, it can't idle for more than 10-15 minutes without freezing / restarting. I'm debating buying a new SATA harddrive but I want to be sure that's the problem.

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General Discussion / MacBook 2.1 - Odd Problems
« on: December 07, 2009, 05:08:41 pm »
I recently obtained a MacBook 2.1, which was pretty cool but it has some odd problems. Randomly it will freeze up while doing different kinds of tasks, and it also randomly restarts from time to time. If I had to guess I'd say it could be the harddrive, but I don't hear any noise coming from the harddrive to support that. If it were Windows, I'd probably guess a virus. But since this is my first Mac ever, I'm really not sure at all.

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General Discussion / Re: Let's hear it!
« on: November 30, 2009, 05:40:50 pm »
Starting the gym today! Hax!

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General Discussion / Re: signs
« on: November 27, 2009, 09:07:30 pm »
Did you say drugs? I feel like I read your original post and all I saw was "I'm on drugs."

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haha, that's sick as fuck.

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General Discussion / Re: Boot loader?
« on: November 21, 2009, 09:40:28 am »
I hear that ALL the time, I've used partition magic in a lot of computer repairs and never had a problem...

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General Discussion / Re: Boot loader?
« on: November 12, 2009, 10:19:19 am »
Remove linux, resize with partition magic, then boot into a windows repair console and fixboot / fixmbr. Idk if this has been resolved I just read the first post.

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