Tuberload, I know you're probably just covering your bases here, but I hope you realize it is never my goal to attack you personally. I may come off a bit coarse at times, but it is never because I disrespect you as a person; I may find your beliefs objectionable to the highest degree, but it's never my intention to do anything but argue against the existence of God (or to discredit attempts to argue for the existence of God).
I'm naturally skeptical. I always have been. This may find a few of you incredulous, as I used to be openly religious myself, but I blame indoctrination for that. I was always uneasy about my beliefs, but my blindness was reinforced by my environment. When I left home, my faith rapidly faded.
This being said, I think unconditional skepticism almost requires atheism. There is no tangible evidence for the existence of God (to my knowledge -- feel free to prove me wrong). I'm familiar with the usual apologetic arguments, and a few of the less common ones. Every single one of them is terrible to the point of it being vaguely pathetic. Because of this, I reject the notion of a God. Unlike many theists (and atheists), I don't claim to know that God doesn't exist, because I don't think anyone has knowledge pertaining to the existence of a god.
I appreciate this response. I hope you understand that the approaches and arguments you present are, confessedly, beyond my scope of understanding and therefore would require much effort to produce a genuinely thoughtful articulation.
As you have observed my reasons for belief are rather subjective and founded upon experience. Objective doctrinal studies, for me, have only served to keep my personal experience, which I will refer to the belief as God through the mediation of His Christ Jesus and His Spirit, within the proper boundaries as described by the Bible. I hold to the belief that if a God who created everything that is, is truly desirous of my soul, and if I am truly living within a fallen state of personal humanity, then He is more than capable of communicating to me the necessary information required to return to a restored state. I therefore approach God in a way heavily reliant upon faith. The evidence for me is found in what I believe are God’s responses to that faith. We live in a world where information is transmitted all the time between satellites and other mediums of wireless communication. All of this takes place while invisible to the natural human senses. Therefore it would seem reasonable that God, by His Spirit, can also communicate with me through a spiritual means even though it is invisible to my natural human senses. This is of course heavily reliant upon faith, but the experience is a very real one and not just some ideology. I am encountering something whether this belief is proven justifiable or not beyond that of my own personal context. The good things that have come about in my life over the last 3+ years is grounds enough for me to trust in the source of this experience, once again a statement heavily reliant upon faith but not void of evidence or substance.
I am not interested in the doctrines of men, rituals or religion void of a living God yet full of ideas and traditions. I am also not aware of the apologetic arguments, so anything I say that sounds like one just proves that my ideas are not necessarily original. I will approach all who will listen with what the word of my faith has to say for reasons previously stated. I have very few of the answers. You however give me much focus and motivation to at least attempt discovery of a few, and for that I thank you. I believe that the supernatural ministry of God’s Spirit through healings, miracles, divine insights into the human heart, etc, is still available for our time. While this may cause me to be ostracized by religious orthodoxy I would rather produce a tangible experience for a lost and hurting person than an argument for an inquisitive mind. This, of course, is once again a venture of faith, a venture in which I hope to see a realization, a venture that will be justified only if a blind mans eyes are truly opened or a lame man truly walks or perhaps by the Spirit I tell a person I have never met intimate details about his life because there truly is a God that knows everything about him. Am I a fool? Only time will tell.
